The time that we spent apart helped me come to the realization that I never needed you. I wanted and feened for you. I got played because I entertained your already large ego. I blamed myself for your actions and mistakes for a long time. Until, I woke up one day and said, “Fuck her, I don’t need this. This isn’t me.” I can’t lie I miss almost everything about you. Late night phone calls, cute texts, laying in grass, deep conversations.. all of it I truly miss. I would go to Hell and back for you, but obviously we wanted different things. I wasn’t enough. I guess what I’m trying to say is.. I’m taking the first step of moving on. I deserve better than what I received. l’ll find someone who’s kisses are softer, and who’s hugs are warmer. I love you, but I’m not in love with you.
Rant
Like glass I’m clear and almost invisible, easily shattered when not properly cared for. I can be dropped and shattered constantly being stepped on by those who are superior to me until I become a nuisance then i will be sweated up and simply thrown away only to be forgotten and replaced.
I can’t anymore I just can’t. I hold too much in everything is crashing and burning right before my eyes. I feel as if I’m going to self-destruct. I don’t think I’m going to hold up much longer; before I SNAP!
